It’s nearly 3 on a Friday afternoon and I am sleepy. I feel as if I am jet lagged or haven’t slept in24 hours. You would think I didn’t get 6 hours of sleep plus a 20-30 minute nap on the train ride to work. I haven’t even run since Tuesday. I did stand the entire 90 minute Galaxy game last night, because that’s what you do at soccer games…stand the entire time, but I still shouldn’t be all fatigued. Thinking about it now, not eating dinner last night plus today’s lunch of cold pasta, tomatoes with mozzarella cheese and ice cream probably wasn’t the best way to energize my body. I’ll probably nap on the train ride home, and perhaps inadvertently fall asleep on the bus too. Unless rereading Harry Potter 3 keeps me up. (What happened to reading for American literature??) I want to do some yoga after work, get a nap and try to eat something healthy before going out tonight. Tomorrow should be pretty wonderful. I aim to sleep in until 9, do some yoga, get my hair trimmed, go for a long run with my boyfriend, and then eat to my heart’s content at the LA Street Food Festival at the Rose Bowl.
My new school schedule for Fall means, I’ll have to stop working at Nestlé. I’m happy and sad about this. It’s been such a great opportunity and I’ve really liked everything I’ve done while I’m there. I’m happy because to be honest, I’m excited for much more free time. Last semester I was only working about 12 hours a week, but I had school days that lasted from 9-4. This summer I’ve been working 30 hours a week, four days a week. I know that both of those are really easy schedules and I shouldn’t be complaining for more free time, but I’m not going to mind a semester of it before I finish up my BA and move on to a full time job and/or more school. I’m looking forward to not having to wake up 6 if I don’t want to. I really hope I can start using my mornings to work out four days a week. I have such better workouts in the morning and find it tremendously easier to find the energy then rather than after 7.5 hours of work and 2.5 hours of commuting. I wouldn’t mind even continuing to get up at 6 to fit in a run/yoga/pilates/cycling.
I feel so spoiled and selfish writing all this. I really should be thinking about acquiring a part time job for after school, but even if I do that, I should still have my free mornings. I suppose I really don’t need to defend my excitement over an open schedule. It’s nice and refreshing to change things up every now and then.
Update on my summer goals:
Running. I’ve been attempting to run 2 or 3 times a week but I’ve hit some sort of slump both physically and mentally. If I don’t run, I’ve been trying to do yoga or pilates, so I’m at least exercising. It’s definitely time to sign up for another 5k to attempt to re-infuse myself with motivation.
Writing. I haven’t taken anytime to really creatively write anything. Maybe a short blog post here and there, but that’s it. Maybe I should start keeping a journal. At least I’d be writing something.
Organizing. Between 20-35 hour work weeks, plus my 2 ½ hour a day commute, exercising, seeing my boyfriend, and being social…this has not happened. Ha, but I’m not to stressed about it.
Birthday and heels. Nada.
So it appears setting goals didn’t really help me keep, well, any of them. I need a new approach or something. I have on the other hand, been having a whole mess of fun. I continue to love my boyfriend, family and friends. My commute allows me to get reading in and I’ve already finished Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, The Kite Runner, and am currently immersed in Slaughterhouse Five. In 3 months, I’ll be 21 and finally able to go out more with aforementioned friends and boyfriend.
Time to have another go at these goals. I believe I’ll start tonight with a trip to the gym and at least cleaning out my closet…while wearing heels. J I’ll also attempt to either write in a paper journal or this one, at least about the trivial details of my day to day.
I wish I could time travel to tell myself, “Hey, you’re gonna make it out the other side.” I want to tell myself that if you think this is a catastrophe and the end of your life, maybe you should read some history books and learn about real disasters and death. I want to say, you know as hard as it is to lose your best friend or great love, there’s going to be more. You’re going to think you’re healed sooner than you will be, but these wounds you have really do heal with time. If this is the worst thing that ever happens to you, you’re going to lead such a blessed life.
I’m really happy lately. In a when-I-get-emotional, I almost want to cry about it. Yeah of course there are the usual trivial downturns and annoyances. Did I foresee my summer being made up of 7 ½ work days and 2 ½ hour long commutes? Not really. Am I lucky and fortunate to be making good money while I still have minimal monthly bills (cell phone and gym membership) so that I can put money away? Yes.
I have great relationships with everyone in my family, a great relationship with my boyfriend, steady paychecks, good friends, and good health. For that, I am grateful. <3
Be able to run 5-6 miles at a time.
Put together a 10-15 page sample of writing (for grad school applications in winter).
Organize closet (to an extreme; there is way too much junk/clothes I never wear).
Plan 21st birthday party in October.
Learn how to walk in heels (and not look drunk or klutzy).
I think these are all attainable goals. From last summer until now I've trained myself to run an entire 5k (3.1 miles). I probably should quit the gym because I've pretty much stopped taking classes and doing anything besides run on the treadmill. It's too nice outside to be spending $27/month to use a treadmill. I need to get over my control issue of knowing how far I run/buy some type of running device to tell me how far I ran. The writing task is somewhat daunting to me, but it's what I've spent the past 3 years studying and what I want to do with my life (right?). The closet can easily be a one-two day task. My birthday is more tricky depending on money and friend's availabilty.
The heels one is vain, but I want to wear heels to work, to parties, and going out. They hurt my feet and I have always given up on this goal, but I want to look professional and classy, so here's to trying to practice wearing heels around the house for 20 minutes or so a day until it's almost second nature.
By the way, I completed my junior year of college today. A year from now I'll have a BA in English. How crazy is that?
I’ve had a ridiculously good week. The weather has been spectacular which reminds me every day of how much I love being born and raised in Southern California.
On Wednesday, I treated myself to a complete day of relaxation; a Valentine’s day present to myself. I slept in, well until 8, made myself a big bowl of oatmeal and bananas and went to yoga at the gym at 10:30. Due to 24 not having night yoga classes or non-6:45 a.m. Saturday classes, I never get to go to yoga. After yoga, I went to Massage Envy and had a wonderful 60 minute massage, thanks to a gift card from Christmas. My mom and I then had lunch together a Corner Bakery and I got a pedicure. I spent the rest of the day lazily doing homework and watching Desperate Housewives, and I made bacon and pancakes for dinner.
Thursday night, I took the boy to Sushi Planet and spent a good two hours talking and cuddling in my car.
Friday I had a long, easy work day and then made dinner with my best friend and enjoyed some margaritas while watching the opening ceremonies of the Olympics. Later we went to another friend’s apartment and just lounged around.
Saturday was the LA Street Food Festival. I went with my sister, my brother in law, and three of my sister’s friends. Despite long lines and getting slammed in the face by a truck door (yeah…ouch), I had a really good time. All the food was delicious, there were two celebrity sightings, and downtown LA was gorgeous in this weather. We followed the food fest with Jacuzzi time, Red Robin, and watching a Disney movie.
Valentine’s day was started off with a two mile run at the gym, a few hours on the beach with Katelyn, a burrito and a bottled coke. At night I went over to the boy’s apartment and we went out for pie and rented movie. It was one of the best Valentine’s day I can remember, (besides my February 13th date with Josh, which of course I’ll always hold dear.)
Today I went on a nice hike with my best friend, his mom and dog and then to my brother’s baseball practice.
I’m just ridiculously happy right now. It could be because I’m taking 4 easy classes and only working 12 hours a week. Maybe it’s all the sunshine and vitamin D I’ve been getting. It could be from all the exercise and the endorphins. Or maybe it’s how lovely everything is progressing with this new boy. Not too fast, not too slow.
In any case, I hope this keeps up. I’m loving the feeling.
Did I mention I’m going to Disneyland tomorrow? <3
Now to spend WAY less money on eating out to continue to save while paying some sort of monthly fee. Also to decide whether or not to ask for a few personal training sessions for Christmas.
I have always considered myself to be more of a summer person over any other season. Being born and raised in southern
While I’ve been thinking about fall and winter, I realized that I have started 4 relationships during the months of January and February. While that is probably merely coincidence, it has me wondering what this winter will have in store for me. While I’m slightly sad to see another summer draw to a close, I can’t help but be excited to develop a whole new routine. I’m also looking forward to a few trips to new places to visit familiar faces.
- Current Location:Glendale, CA
- Current Mood: contemplative
I recently realized the trendy thing to do is to start a blog, so I did. loveandtexting.blogspot.com
I've only made one post so far, but I'd like to be posting in there at least once a week, so you better start following it. You can comment and such using your lj account.
In other news, I've been working as a sort of assistant to the Director of Change Management (Michael's mom!) at the Nestle USA headquarters in Glendale all summer. Usually 3 days a week. I also finally left Hollister because my sister was hired as a Manager in Training. I officially become an Abercrombie (technically already was) employee tomorrow, for my first shift at A&F. Once school starts I believe I'll be staying on at both Nestle and Abercrombie. So my life will look like:
Monday: Glendale 9am-2pm then Moorpark (Cardio Kickboxing) 4pm-5:30pm
Tuesday: CSUN 9:30am-4:45pm
Wednesday: Glendale 9am-2pm then Moorpark (Cardio Kickboxing) 4pm-5:30pm
Thursday: CSUN 9:30am-4:45pm
Friday: Nestle or A&F
Saturday/Sunday, I'd like to keep free so I can sleep in, do homework and my online Philosophy class.
I'm not really sure doing all this will work out, but I guess I'll have to wait and see. I want to get through school and continue getting good work experience, even if it really isn't my field of study. $12/hour makes it not so bad. If it all becomes to much I will just quit A&F.
I can't believe summer is almost over. Well here's to looking forward fall birthdays (mine!), pumpkin chai tea lattes, pumpkin icecream, and cute sweaters.
PS. I tried to detect my location and it said I was in Missouri. That's obviously where my heart must be.
- Current Location:Glendale, California
I want to learn how to accept the things that I can not control. I can not make someone love me if they don't want to. I have been feeling so pathetic for becoming this sad girl who let's herself be used because she's delusional.
I know that it just takes time for all wounds to heal but all I want back is my optimism and self confidence, please.